“Former Homosexual Wanting To Embrace Islam” June 14, 2006Posted by Rasheed Eldin in Advice, Islam, Responses.
I have been studying Islam.
I have been reading Maulana Muhammed Ali's translation of the Holy Qur'an and have been discovering the greatness and beauty of the prophet Muhammed, peace and blessings be upon him, by reading Safi-ur-Rahman al-Mubarakpuri's "Ar-Raheeq Al-Makhtum" (The Sealed Nectar).
I was raised in a home that did not fear Allah and have been a part of a society where deprviation [[depravation/deviation? – ed]] has become normal. As such, I regret terribly some of my past actions. In my early twenties, I had a homosexual encounter. By the grace and mercy of Allah, I am free from disease as a result of this encounter. After the incident, I fell into a great depression which lasted for more than a year. The depression was a result of my conscious being so incredibly distraught over this action. My research into Islam has been hindered because I have felt that perhaps Allah would not accept me because of this major transgression. I was not a Muslim at the time, and in fact, knew very little about Islam then.
I no longer participate in any of those dreadful acts and am committed to living a life of purity in the sight of Allah. Nevertheless, as I have been researching Islam, I have read the severe penalty for such a sin. Often death is mentioned.
I know this is a very personal question, and that this is ultimately between me and Allah. However, it has been such a stumbling block that I have avoided making Shahadah and becoming a Muslim. Even this was a very brief encounter at one time and many years ago, I am still plagued by the memory of it.
I strongly desire to become a Muslim, to make Salat, and to live a life in obedience to Allah and the Sunnah. I no longer participate in devious sexual sin, and hope that Allah would favor me enough to allow me to enter into Islam.
Is it possible? Thank you for your advice.
Dear brother, wa 'alaikum as-salam.
Absolutely yes, it's possible. You don't need to worry about any punishment for sins committed before embracing Islam, neither in this life nor in the Hereafter. Seize the day, declare your testimony of faith and thank Allah for His bounties.
Ash-hadu an laa ilaaha illa-Llah wa ash-hadu anna Muhammadan rasoolullah.
"I testify that there is none worthy of worship except Allah and I testify that Muhammad is the Messenger of Allah."